A lonely day in a life of a Primadonna.

'Wala kang partner?', 'I doubt if you're single!', 'Bakit ka single?', and the list goes on and on. These are just few questions that I receive everytime the word relationship enters the scene. I will just then answer, 'Wala lang. It's a choice.' But actually, IT'S NOT.

I remembered someone asking me the same question and was able to drive me in a conversation with her words. As our conversation goes on, she stated one statement that really had me, and I quote,

"Kaya wala kang partner eh, kasi tinitingnan mo na agad yung future, yung mga what if's. Kaya pag may bagong dumating, jinu-judge mo na agad." 

I didn't have a good answer to her that time kasi, natamaan ako. But, while on my way home with Karen, counting today in as one of those feeling-not-appreciated day, I came up with a good one.

Me to Karen, "Kaya ko tinitignan agad yung future, kasi gusto ko yung pang-matagalan na agad. Why would I spend my time in a relationship na alam kong di magtatagal? It'll be a waste of time. I'm not getting any younger to play around. Sobrang taas ng sinet na standards nung last, kaya mas hirap ako. (Oo, I somehow made my last partner as a standard for my next one.)"

It's not because that I have high standards that made me single, it's just that, wala akong makilalang may spark! (And, YES! Naniniwala pa din ako sa sparks, the-right-one, destiny, and so on. 😊)

I know God has perfect plan in perfect time. Just like what happened before me and Karen separate ways,

Karen: "Sakay ka na diyan. Andun na yung bus ko sa likod."

While walking towards the bus, it started moving.

Me: "Wala na ehh!"

Karen: "Yaan mo na. May darating pa naman."

I know and still believe that someone is created for me. That someone's hand will fit mine. I just need to wait. - LalaPrimadonna